How to kill a rat with an oboe
Okay my topic has nothing to do with rat killing, and the oboe sounds good only when being played with fifty to a hundred more instruments....
Answer to "It's time to Retire...Feel free to drop in."-Jack Nicholson, Batman
Today got up and wrote in my healing notebook, about...not healing. Weird. But yeah noticed I was getting better about healing from my current living situation, and then a few weeks ago everything went all to hell. JSean has known me forever and he and I used to be reflective of stupid shit like what I am going through, over either a coke for him, and a cup of coffee and a vanilla shake for me at either a Denny's or Village Inn, or in his Basement, or sitting in the Spade Mobile, or The Beast, or the Thing. (Car references though JSean never named his vehicle anything but she. Although I think his Mom did refer to the car as little car.) Simple times. Times I wished I had now, but I don't. Oh well. Either way what is healing or getting better. Is it simply just not thinking of causes you pain for a period of time...is it all mental? Physical Ailments usually have new tissue that forms around the old it scabs then dries then if your lucky it doesn't scar. Emotional hurts are more messed up because there is nothing to really track other than, hey did I think about something today or did I act and even then, did I not think because focus went to something else for a while.
Reality hit me today when I determined and it was like Duh- the decisions and action we make now can't be taken back you can't have that moment in history to go back and do things over, and do it again but do it differently. At least some of us learn that lesson.
Answer to "It's time to Retire...Feel free to drop in."-Jack Nicholson, Batman
Today got up and wrote in my healing notebook, about...not healing. Weird. But yeah noticed I was getting better about healing from my current living situation, and then a few weeks ago everything went all to hell. JSean has known me forever and he and I used to be reflective of stupid shit like what I am going through, over either a coke for him, and a cup of coffee and a vanilla shake for me at either a Denny's or Village Inn, or in his Basement, or sitting in the Spade Mobile, or The Beast, or the Thing. (Car references though JSean never named his vehicle anything but she. Although I think his Mom did refer to the car as little car.) Simple times. Times I wished I had now, but I don't. Oh well. Either way what is healing or getting better. Is it simply just not thinking of causes you pain for a period of time...is it all mental? Physical Ailments usually have new tissue that forms around the old it scabs then dries then if your lucky it doesn't scar. Emotional hurts are more messed up because there is nothing to really track other than, hey did I think about something today or did I act and even then, did I not think because focus went to something else for a while.
Reality hit me today when I determined and it was like Duh- the decisions and action we make now can't be taken back you can't have that moment in history to go back and do things over, and do it again but do it differently. At least some of us learn that lesson.
posted by Joel at 2:51 PM
3 Comments:
Hey man, when's a good time to ring you up?
Um when you are at a cash register.
um usually home at about eight to ten pm my time. Too tired for the mountain time conversion.
Ha ha Haaaaaaaa......sonavahbitch.
Cool, I shall.
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