Hmmm yeah it has been awhile

Just got done reading J's post about anger, and responded the best way I could. I thought it was weird I am reading it going, oh no you don't dude. At the same time it reminded me of old times. J and I as written before were notorious for discussing life and relationships at his old pad, in the basement, usually between the hours of Two a.m. to sometimes six o'clock in the morning. The only other person I would talk to that long would be Ann. But J and I would sit there trying to figure out bullshit, like the meaning of life, why people are fucked up, what the hell is with selfish people, are there good guys in the world and where are all the good girls for the good guys. Then we separated for a while and got busy with our lives, and now we have come full circle, both of us in our own way asking the very same fucking questions we were asking twelve, or thirteen years ago. The more things change the more they stay the same. Yeah that's part of it, if you're not aware of history you are due to repeat it. Yeah, again that's true. Different situations with different people that we are dealing with but for the most part we are still basically the same, a little older a little wiser, but the best of what we were is still very much around.

Both of us were notorious for taking a break, both of us were so independent when it came to the jokers we both hung out with, and hell sometimes we took breaks from eachother, but in the end he would say something to crack me up and I could do the same for him, and both of us would kick eachother in the ass. "You know you're full of shit Joel and you've always been full of shit..." became a joke between me and him and we used to use that line on eachother. I apreciate every damn question he asked on that last post, because I can't think of a line he wrote that I haven't asked myself within the last four or five months. But he'll figure it out, same as me. Richard Bach wrote "Here's a test to figure out if your mission on earth is done; If you're alive it isn't." Little shit like that has kept me going since I was a teenager. Both of us went through the dumbass kid suicidal trip, the dumbass destructive behavior bullshit, although not as self destructive as some of our friends. Both of us ended up alot better off too....We will make it. And he'll be back to the sarcastic, and cynical but hilarious remarks we are all used to. And to think he used to believe himself an asshole because he was who he was. No, it just made him J.